3.14. Pi day.
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Still sick, I’m intent on spending the day editing photos and watching movies, eager to recover.
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A psoriasis commercial:
“Psoriasis is a sign of an overactive immune system”
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I think of my father – he’s had this flaky skin disorder, once a cause of adolescent embarrassment during introductions to my friends, as far back as I can remember. I’m relieved that my old man’s got a powerful defense mechanism, even if we haven’t spoken in a month.
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Micron lays her paw on my arm and gazes into my eyes with those black oceans of pure dog love, then begins to urgently lick my face.
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The phone rings.
“Hi, grandma!”
“Hi. How are you?”
“Pretty sick, actually.”
“Oh. Your father died.”
The delivery is so dry, I ask if she’s joking.
Dad, 1950 – 2011
I’m so sorry, friend.
All the love,
s.
It has all been said, I can only add my same condolences to you.
I’m so truly sorry for your loss, Zoetica. My heart goes out to you and your family. you are not alone, stay strong :)
all my heart with you and your family. <3
I truely wish you the best of luck in recovery. Nothing can take your grief away of your father’s passing, but do know I believe that his spirits have moved on to their new beginings. His memory will continue to live on.
i’m so sorry. you don’t know many of us who are delighted daily by your tweets, but know that our sympathy & thoughts are indeed with you at this time. besos desde españa.
Truly sorry that this has happened, Zoe.
Love to you and yours.
coming out of lurking to say how sorry i am for the loss of your father. i lost my mother six years ago this august; there is nothing that can compare to the loss of a parent. it is a core shaking experience that changes something deep inside. though we do not know each other, please know i send you so much love. wishing you strength and peace of mind and heart, zoetica. xx
i am so wholeheartedly sorry.
that’s such a horrible way to find out.
My condolences for your loss.
Oh Zoe,
I lost my father 4 years ago and while I can never understand how you feel, I can empathize with the pain of losing a parents as an adult no matter how close you were with them.
Wishing you the best.
My heartfelt and sincerest condolences. I’ve been there and it sucks hard. Keep your head up!
I am so sorry to about your father. I can’t even imagine what you’re going through right now.
You have my sincerest condolences.
My heart goes out to you. I lost my father when I was 18. It was one of the hardest things to deal with. Keep your head up and be strong.
My deepest sympathies for your loss.
my heart and thoughts are with u and ur family. thru biorequiem u share your life and wonderful art and view of the world. and for me personally make me think and see the world in different ways than i normally would, and a bring a refreshing break from the monotony of the day. to learn of ur loss hurts all of our hearts and all of our thoughts are with u
I am so sorry for your loss, Zoe. Yes, what a horrible way to find out. I can’t imagine hearing those words through the phone. My heart goes out to you and your family as well, stay strong and remember the good times. <3
Sending lots of love your way,
Holly
Oh so sorry to hear about your loss.
Best wishes
– Liz
i’m truly sorry for this, hold on sweet Zoetica u’r an amazing person and a crazy gorgeous source of inspiration
A big hug
<3
So sorry for your loss.
O, my god, I am so sorry. How are you holding up, are you going to Colorado? Love and a big hug from me and Katya
Wishing you & your family healing. Tonight, I will light a candle on your behalf. *hugs*
Tanya and Katya – thank you! I’m as well as can be expected, and yes. planning to go to Colorado for a couple of days once funeral plans are set. Hugs to you both.
My deepest condolences.
I know we’ve only met very briefly, but that sort of made you a “real person” and not an “internet person” in my brain. I truly am so sorry for your loss. He must have been a great man, because he had a hand in making a very unique, talented, and interesting person. Keep him close to your heart.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts. Thanks for everything you do- and thanks to your Dad (who is adorable) for passing on such great genes. I hope you find the love and support you need to get through this difficult time. <3
Oh, Zo, I’m so sorry!
Random *huggle* from a stranger.
Coping with loss is one of the most confusing times I’ve ever had to experience in my life. The hardest part is dealing with facing the reality that they aren’t there anymore, you will never see them. Though it’s far too soon to attempt closure, the sting will subside in time. You will find your peace with it in your own way. I find comfort in believing that though they may be gone from this world, the relationship is not gone. It’s just evolved.
You’re in my thoughts.
I am truly sorry for your loss and my thoughts are with you and your family.
i am so sorry.
I am so sorry. Sending thoughts and virtual hugs.
Gabrielle
My deepest condolences to you. My father died when I was twenty-four, so I know how it shakes you. It was after a long illness, though, so it was expected. The sudden death of a loved one is something I know, too, unfortunately, and I’m still trying to realign my perception with reality. It’s hard. Don’t feel bad if you don’t feel up to being “strong.” Grief is not a weakness — we feel it because we loved someone.
Just wanted to say that, even though I’m a stranger, I’m so sorry for your loss. <3
My deepest condolences for your loss.
Sorry to hear about your loss. He looks like such a happy person in the photo you posted. I hope that you focus on the happy memories and the life he lived. xoxo
Zoetica,
I am definitely not saying that I know how you feel, but I just lost my cat. Literally. About half an hour ago. After rushing to the vet to find out why he had turned purple and was drooling everywhere the veterinarian told me that his little heart and lungs had failed and I had to say good bye. It was SO unexpected. I’ve had him for eleven years.
My father also passed away when I was five.
He hung himself with his work belt and never said good bye. I didn’t cry then and never have cried for his death. But I think part of me cried for him today after crying for my cat. I’m not sure why.
May your father rest in peace. And my father too.
And also my beloved cat, Edward de Bono.
Stay strong.
From Justin
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you.
I’m sorry for your loss, I know the disbelief of losing a loved one. My thoughts are with you and your family.
My deepest condolences. I hope that you are surrounded by good people and good spirit.
I am truly sorry and sending my condolences to you and your family. Stay strong.
Anna
condolences to you and your family. xxoo
A –
So sorry. Thinking of you.
– B
Zoetica,
Words from a stranger are unlikely to be of much comfort, but please know that there are many readers, including myself, who are thinking of you and would take away your pain if we could. Losing someone close to you is never easy, and that is coming from someone who deals with death on a daily basis. Just know that whatever you feel right now is exactly what you should feel; be it sad, angry, or numb and that it will get better. Thankfully, you have your husband and the deep unconditional love of Micron to see you through.
losing a parent is the worst thing in the world. i am so, so, sorry.
I’m sorry to hear of your father’s passing. Celebrate his life. Always remember him. I hope this illness you have passes quickly. Take good care of yourself sweet Zoetica.
I really wish I could say something here to make it at least somewhat better, having gone through the same thing myself with my mother. I guess just remember that no matter how painful it may be right now, and will be for a while, death is a natural part of life.
Oh, Zoetica! I’m so sorry! I’m honestly in tears for you right now, dear. I know there’s nothing I can say to heal the pain or to bring your dad back, but I do send my condolences to you, and you and your family are in my prayers. I’ve never lost a parent, but I can only imagine how awful it is. I imagine your dad is in a good place now, where he’ll always watch over you. Just remember that he’ll never be “gone” as long as you hold onto the good memories and your love for him. Stay strong, dear. Much love to you. <3
Oh my. My condolences to you and your family, regardless of what the relationship may have been. Spirits be with you, dear.
I’m so sorry :(